I dreamt of you last night

It all came to life

Pictures of you and me

Living together happily.

I woke up sad it wasn’t true

But remembered that,

although I want you

You don’t want me too.

Nothing I can do anymore

I ruined it long before.

You showed me the southern cross,

for words; I was at a loss.

You were kind and sweet,

I was blinded by your company.

You seemed to care more than the rest,

this is why I’m obsessed.

All I want is to feel loved and needed,

kill myself for you, I am bleeding.

You gave me everything,

I turned and ran.

Only now I can see what I’ve done,

what I’ve lost and what I’ll never have.

My feelings, I keep them locked up inside my broken chest,

The key only to be found on the ocean’s floor.

I’m not sure anymore, what it is that I’m looking for.

Any glimmer of hope I once had, now gone,

as you walk on.

Approaching six months since you left this world. It still doesn't seem real.

You were in my dream on Friday night. I woke up thinking you were alive, it was the worst feeling realising that it was only a dream.

Going to the footy without you doesn't seem right, you're meant to hold the record for good luck.

Whenever I'm in need of strength, I think of you.

Rest In Peace xx

You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. 

You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can't be sure. 

But it doesn't matter - because we'll be together.

I hate letting people down. I've gotten to the point where I am trying to please everyone. 

I'm lost.